What the hell happened to my body?
Well, what happened?
I discovered exactly what happened and when. See I used to blame it on menopause. Now menopause is a real thing, or is it? I believe that along with everything else in our lives, we believe these things because that is what we heard somewhere and we take it on as our own truth so we don't have to really look at the truth. But the truth is, we have complete control of our bodies. I have proven this to myself.
I have studied and practiced a technique called 'Emotional Freedom Technique' or EFT. The theory is that when you have events in your life that effect you in an emotional way, usually a negative emotion, you create a block in the bodies flow of energy. Your body will absolutely respond to that.
This is what happened to me. I had just gone through a very painful divorce. I returned to my hometown, leaving my married life behind. I was working and I was looking pretty good. I was slender, I was always dressed very professionally. Then one day a man that worked in the same building as me asked me out on a date. I absolutely froze, and this is the conversation I had in my head at the time:
'OMG!! If I go out with him then I might like him or even fall in love with him and then my heart will just get crushed again. I have to get unattractive so men won't notice me.' Did you hear that? 'I have to get unattractive so men don't notice me.'
Little did I know that this conversation created a huge block in me and it changed my life. Not only did it change my life, but my life spiraled out of control and my body did just exactly what I told it to do, get unattractive.
Within a year after this incident, I gained 80lbs. Over the next 10 years I gained an additional 20 lbs.
I have been learning through my studies not just with EFT and other healing modalities, but through my studies with Kryon, and the Course of Miracles that I definitely created that reality for myself as a way of protecting myself.
So now what? Now, I am in control. I understand that this body is not who I am. I am learning about true forgiveness. True forgiveness unshackles the chains that bind you. It removes the blocks; it allows the energy to flow and most importantly, it helps you remember who is in charge.
The wonderful side effect of this is that without any effort I have been losing weight (over 40lbs now) and I am opening myself up to love. Life is getting better everyday!!
First of all, you cracked me up with this title. I love it! LOL And I can sure relate.
AND I love EFT! Thanks so much for writing this with your heart wide open. You're an inspiration to me. I've now subscribed to your blog and I'm looking forward to getting to know you better.
That was a very inspirational story. I knew you had it in you to write...you have helped me tremendously with the EFT...you have a great gift and I am so glad to hear that you are using it for yourself as well as others.
Love you so much